Hello friend! I’m so glad you have come to read my rambling nonsense as I journey into this next phase of my life. I am changing things up, and wanted to share my successes (and failures) as I try to figure out this life. To start things off, I figured I would share a little about me. I just got married, a month ago! I can’t believe time is flying by like this! Just last week, I swear I was 21 starting a career in my dad’s vending company, and now I am married, on the cusp of turning 30, starting my life over with my wonderful husband as we take on this winding path to our dreams! We just came back from our honeymoon 2 weeks ago, and it has been a whirlwind getting back to work and making plans and setting goals and starting on this new path. I have quit smoking, I’m down 7.8 lbs and I’ve been hired for a part time job, soon to be full time; all since last Monday! To say I feel accomplished and off to a great start is a drastic understatement. This feeling has been such a long time coming. I felt like I had been lost in life. I was depressed and feeling like a failure in all I did. I was the stereotype of the American Dream. I would wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep then wake up and do it all over again. I did that for about 7 years. When I found Igor, my life changed. My depression, my lack of interest, my lost hopes and dreams, they all came to life again. My soul had found it’s better half and the color came back into my world. The past two years with him have been an adventure. We have had our highs and lows, our mountains and our valleys, and I wouldn’t want to be on this adventure with anyone else. Before our wedding, we made a commitment to each other to come back from our honeymoon and to get healthy, not only physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. I have made a commitment to myself to smile more and to revel in my little victories. We should all take the time celebrate when we succeed, no matter how small. You may be thinking, “But what if I fail?” Take it for what it is. We all have failures. None of us are perfect. Learn from your failures and try again. Take a moment, cry a tear, but pick yourself up and keep pushing forward. The struggles and obstacles will be so worth it when you make it to the top of the mountain and see the view. Believe me, I was there about 2 weeks ago. I hiked my first mountain in over a decade. We only took the short trail. Half a mile, to be specific. I cried most of the way up. I was embarrassed and beating myself up one side and down the other. Telling myself to give up an turn around. But when we made it to the top of the lookout, and I looked out at the view in front of me, I realized, I just needed to get out of my own way. I can’t give up. It is going to be uncomfortable. I’m going to trip and fall and I’m going to have to push through the storms, but when I get to the other side, it is going to be so worth it. I’m going to make it to my goals at the top of my mountain, and you can too! Come back soon for more inspiration, motivation, and bring the color back into your life!
